Hello new friends
Posted: Tue Feb 10, 2015 1:24 pm
Hi,
I left the coc back when I was 18. I flopped around like a fish out of water. I knew nothing about sexuality, or how to make friends, I was a child in many ways. All I knew was that I wanted out. The emotional baggage that I left with is still with me. I fight against it everyday. I am 62 years old.
I married right away and had 2 kids. This marriage lasted 6 years, it should have been a one night stand. I had 2 more marriages which failed, no more kids.
I went into therapy at 28. My recovery began with the discovery of one word; Hope. I realized that I could not go back to a hopeless ren. I also found out about Acceptance, a very powerful and healing word. Next I learned the meaning of Love, also a healing word. Next I experienced a word which saved my life; Joy. I had never felt these true emotions from reading the bible or while in the coc.
I have been happily married for many years now. I have children and grandchildren whom I protect from the coc.
I have a new spirituality. I am totally Pagan. There is a hot coal that still burns in the back of my mind which will not heal. That is my hatred of all things christian, the bible, and the coc.
I have a large family. All coc. Few talk with me. None of my close family will speak with me. I have never been invited to Thanksgiving at their homes, even though they have been gathering there every year. Nor have they invited my wife of 21 years, or my children. When my mother died they did not tell me. When my father died, they did not call me. When my brother died, they did not call me.
I weep for them. They have never known Love.
The junk that I was force fed as a child is a terrible scar which will not heal completely. Until yesterday I thought I was alone, until I found you all. I hope that you will accept me.
I send you all Love and Hope for your life.
I left the coc back when I was 18. I flopped around like a fish out of water. I knew nothing about sexuality, or how to make friends, I was a child in many ways. All I knew was that I wanted out. The emotional baggage that I left with is still with me. I fight against it everyday. I am 62 years old.
I married right away and had 2 kids. This marriage lasted 6 years, it should have been a one night stand. I had 2 more marriages which failed, no more kids.
I went into therapy at 28. My recovery began with the discovery of one word; Hope. I realized that I could not go back to a hopeless ren. I also found out about Acceptance, a very powerful and healing word. Next I learned the meaning of Love, also a healing word. Next I experienced a word which saved my life; Joy. I had never felt these true emotions from reading the bible or while in the coc.
I have been happily married for many years now. I have children and grandchildren whom I protect from the coc.
I have a new spirituality. I am totally Pagan. There is a hot coal that still burns in the back of my mind which will not heal. That is my hatred of all things christian, the bible, and the coc.
I have a large family. All coc. Few talk with me. None of my close family will speak with me. I have never been invited to Thanksgiving at their homes, even though they have been gathering there every year. Nor have they invited my wife of 21 years, or my children. When my mother died they did not tell me. When my father died, they did not call me. When my brother died, they did not call me.
I weep for them. They have never known Love.
The junk that I was force fed as a child is a terrible scar which will not heal completely. Until yesterday I thought I was alone, until I found you all. I hope that you will accept me.
I send you all Love and Hope for your life.