Hello Every One -- chattykitty
Posted: Wed Aug 19, 2015 10:50 am
Hello every one! I grew up in the "Ultra Conservative," Church of Christ... I know completely the deep twisted man made operations of this cult and once I was of age, I have for the last 39+ years tried my best to de-program myself from all the extreme abuse in every fashion given me. My life has been an uphill struggle. For many years I was and still am so afraid of God that I ran and ran through out my life. Numerous times I even tried to propel myself to hell and just get it over with since it was ingrained in me since a baby that I am a bad person. That God was angry at me and I am domed for eternal hell. I never heard the word "Grace," until I was in my twenties and visited a Baptist church. I sat in that pew frozen and stunned to hear a sermon on it. I have never felt true forgiveness inspite of my searching for it and the meaning there of. After years of running in absolute FEAR... I finally started reading the Bible for myself in a safe place and I was so shocked in page after page completely contradicted everything stomped in me. I am still trying to recover and am hoping maybe this site will give me hope and healing. Maybe, I will get stable and balanced? I am today, still deeply effected and so are my 3 brothers. What a piece of work this church is...
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